At last, here is the trailer (via E! News) for the documentary about Whitney Houston that her estate doesn’t really want anyone to see.

The documentary is remarkable mostly for its behind the scenes footage of her 1999 European tour, shot by Rudi Dolezal, whom Houston personally commissioned. The trailer paints a picture that feels more salacious than tragic—at times various voiceovers refer to drug use and the dogged pursuit of perfection. As a portrait of a singer who was affected so greatly by the darker side of fame, it looks like it’s worth a watch.

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Speaking to Jezebel in April, Dolezal shared his some of his thought process behind bringing the documentary to light:

My motivation was: Here I was with footage when you hear and see her singing and I was privileged to be the guy who was filming that. It was one of the most outstanding, magic moments I ever filmed in my life with any band. I wanted this to be out in an appropriate project and I think the Whitney Houston onstage is what I’d like to talk about more.

Can I Be Me will premiere on Showtime on August 26.